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class="dark-link perm_post"> witness everybody except those jerks there in the Border Patrol — I'm gonna burn those guys. Dahil naniniwala lang ako na masama sila. At alam nila ito. Alam na nila ito bago ako pumasok sa pinto, at medyo pinahirapan nila ang buhay ko. Sila ay nakikibahagi sa masigasig, ritwal na hazing. At hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyayari; Napagtanto ko ngayon, a) ito ay talagang nakakatuwa sa kanila, ngunit b) gusto nilang makita kung anong uri ako ng tao.</p><p> At ang supervisory agent ng Welton Station, si Kenny Smith, isang magandang lalaki, isang 30-taong beterano ng Border Patrol, habang kinakain nila ako ng buhay, pinupunit ang aking mga ugat sa aking mga buto, lumabas siya, at sinabi niya, "Ano ang nangyayari?" Sabi nila, “Isinulat ng hangal na ito ang aklat na ito tungkol sa…” At tumingin lang siya sa akin, at ito ang tinatawag kong biyaya. Hindi ko alam kung ano pa ang itatawag dito. Ngunit dumating ang sandaling ito, nang tumutok ang kanyang mga mata at tumingin siya sa akin, at sinabi niya, "Nagpadala ako ng rescue. Ipinadala ko ang malaking banzai run na iyon."</p><p> At sa sandaling iyon, nang hindi ko alam, nagbago ang buhay ko. At pinapasok niya ako, at sinimulan niya akong sanayin. At inilabas niya ako at ipinakita sa akin kung ano ang ibig sabihin ng pagsubaybay sa mga tao at kung paano malaman kung anong oras ng umaga ang isang tao ay dumaan. Ito ay hindi kapani-paniwala. Napagtanto ko, ang taong ito ay may Ph.D. sa dumi, sabi ko sa libro, dahil nakakabasa siya ng isang piraso ng dumi tulad ng pagbabasa namin ng tula sa isang lit class; tapos may mga sinasabi siya na nagpapagulo sa isip ko.</p><p> At dumating ang sandaling ito - ang pagbabagong sandali, para sa akin, ay nakatayo sa Devil's Highway kasama niya. At wala doon. Walang bakod. Walang barbed wire. Disyerto lang, sa nakikita mo. At may karatula na may mga butas ng bala sa loob nito na nagsasabing, "Kung pupunta ka sa Estados Unidos, talagang malulungkot kami." Iyon ay tungkol dito.</p><p> [ <em>tawa</em> ]</p><p> At nakatayo ako roon kasama niya, at sinabi niya sa akin — at isipin mo, iniisip ko pa rin na masama sila. Sabi niya, "Alam ko kung ano ang tingin mo sa akin." At natatandaan kong tumingin ako, dahil nasa sinturon niya ang kanyang .40-caliber Glock, at naisip ko, oh, tao. At sinabi niya, "Sa tingin mo ako ay isang jackbooted thug." At nabusted ako. Hindi ko sasabihin, "Well, yes, I do." Nakatayo lang ako. At sinabi niya, "Ako ang iyong jackbooted thug in shining armor." At nagsimula siyang magsalita tungkol sa kanyang buhay.</p><p> At sinabi niya sa akin ang lahat ng kamangha-manghang bagay na ito na hindi ko maisip sa loob ng 100 taon: kung paano pumarada ang mga ahente — nakatira sila sa 70 milya, 50 milya ang layo mula sa anumang istasyon, dahil ganoon katagal bago makapasok sa laro at mabago ang pagkatao mo noong magising ka, sa taong kailangang lumabas ngayon. At sabi niya, “At kailangan mong magmaneho ng 70 milya pauwi, dahil kailangan mong umuwi at i-bounce ang iyong anak sa iyong tuhod.” At sinabi niya sa akin sa isang punto - ito ay isang puting cowboy. Sabi niya, "Ang tatay ko ay isang rancher. Ako ay isang rancher. Alam mo kung ano ang ginagawa ko buong araw? Hinahabol ko ang mga ranchers sa paligid nito." Sabi niya, “Alam kong sarili kong mga tao sila.” At sinabi niya, "Ang trabaho ko ay iligtas ang mga inosenteng sibilyan na namamatay sa isang kakila-kilabot na kamatayan. Ang trabaho ko rin ay arestuhin ang parehong mga sibilyan."</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Tama, parehong bahagi ng equation na iyon na hindi mo alam.</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Ito ay ang parehong tao.</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Minsan, pinag-uusapan mo kung paano mayroong, sa pag-ikot ng mga bagay na nakukuha — itong mga akusasyon na ginawa at mga pagpapalagay na ginawa; na mayroong pagpuna na binabayaran ng mga nagbabayad ng buwis sa Amerika para sa mga istasyon ng kaginhawaan at mamahaling light tower. At pagkatapos ay sinabi mo, "Mali. Sa katunayan, ang mga tore ay itinayo, itinataas, pinananatili, at binayaran para sa labas ng bulsa ng mga liberal na dumudugo ang puso, ang mga ahente mismo ng Border Patrol."</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Sila — OK, pulis sila. Kaya hindi sila tanga, tuso sila. Kaya't nagdisenyo sila ng mga tore na nagliligtas-buhay na may mga makintab na salamin na makikita mula sa maraming, maraming milya ang layo. At sila ay solar-powered. May call button sila. At mayroon silang isang karatula na nagsasabing, "Mamamatay ka. Hindi ka makakarating sa malawak na daanan. At kung ikaw ay nasa pagkabalisa, pindutin ang pindutang ito. Nandito kami bago ang kalahating oras at ililigtas ka." At bilang mga pulis, inilagay nila ang mga ito sa mga lugar kung saan ang karamihan sa mga tao ay naglalakad. Oo, nagbigay ito sa kanila ng higit pang mga pag-aresto, ngunit oo, binigyan sila nito ng access upang iligtas ang mga tao. At iyon ay dinisenyo at itinayo sa mga garahe ng mga ahente ng Border Patrol; lumabas sila at inilagay ang mga ito sa kanilang sarili. At binayaran nila ang mga ito. Maliit na bagay iyon.</p><p> At noong sinasabi niya sa akin ang lahat ng bagay na ito — tumunog ang lahat ng alarm ko — lahat ng aking Chicano, border, Mexican, liberal, may-not-love-Border-Patrol. Ito ay tulad ng robot sa Lost in Space — "Danger, Will Robinson. Maaaring hindi mahal ang Border Patrol." At hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko. At sinabi niya sa akin ang mga bagay na ito tungkol sa pagiging ama, pagiging asawa, at mga patay na tao na nakita niya, at lahat ng bagay na ito. At lumingon ako sa kanya, at sinabi ko, "Kenny - Kenny, mahal kita, tao." At siya lang — hindi siya tumingin sa akin. Nanatili lang siyang nakatingin sa disyerto at sinabing, “I like you too, buddy.”</p><p> [ <em>tawa</em> ]</p><p> Paano ka hindi magsulat ng libro?</p><p> [ <em>musika: “Flores y Tamales” ni Calexico</em> ]</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Ako si Krista Tippett at ito ay <em>On Being</em> . Ngayon kasama ang master storyteller at may-akda na si Luis Alberto Urrea.</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Sa tingin ko, ito talaga ang pinupunto mo doon. Mayroon kang ganitong karanasan, sinabi mo, na sa parehong oras ang mga tao ay nais na palakasin ang mga hadlang, tila gusto naming palitan ang mga ito, at ito ay nakakabaliw sa amin. Sabi mo, "Gusto naming makausap ang isa't isa. Nami-miss namin ang isa't isa."</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Hindi mo ba iniisip?</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Sa tingin ko, ngunit mayroong isang bagay tungkol sa isang tulad mo na nagsusulat nito sa ganoong paraan, at binasa ko ito, at alam kong totoo ito.</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Sa tingin ko ito ay totoo, at sa palagay ko maraming karunungan ang maaaring makuha mula sa magkabilang panig ng pasilyo, kung handa tayong makinig dito. And I admit, most of the time, I'm like, “Nagbibiro ka ba?” Ako ay nanonood ng MSNBC gabi-gabi, sinasabing, “Are you kidding me?”</p><p> [ <em>tawa</em> ]</p><p> Pero willing pa rin akong makinig. [ <em>tumawa</em> ]</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> OK, magkaroon tayo ng ilang katanungan.</p><p> <b>MIYEMBRO AUDIENCE 1:</b> Paano tayo lilikha ng empatiya at pagmamahal upang palitan ang takot at poot?</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Ooh. [ <em>laughter</em> ] I just think, bearing witness, put away that pointy finger and that ridiculous retorika. Ang hirap talaga. Muli, ang panganib ay nagsasalita tungkol sa isang tao. Delikado yan. Ano ang ibig mong sabihin, may mga kahanga-hangang tao sa “relihiyong iyon”? Ano ang ibig mong sabihin, may mga talagang kahanga-hangang tao na mamahalin ko, ginagawa ang “sekswalidad na iyon”? Paano ang tungkol sa "pagboto na iyon"? Hulaan nyo? Lahat ng tao ay may pangarap. Lahat ng tao ay may mga taong mahal nila. Lahat ng tao may sakit.</p><p> At para sa akin, ang isa sa mga pinakadakilang bagay na laging nananatili sa akin ay ang paglalakad sa basurahan ng Tijuana at gawin iyon ang aking mundo sa loob ng maraming taon. Pag-usapan ang tungkol sa takot at pagkamuhi. Naaalala ko pa ang isa sa mga babaeng nasa tambakan ng basura na nakayakap sa akin. Mayroong isang grupo ng mga misyonero, at lahat siya ay nakayakap sa akin, at "Oh, Luis, Luis, Luis." At sinabi niya, "Alam mo kung bakit mahal ko si Luis?" At parang, "Bakit?" "Hindi siya natatakot sa atin." At ako ay tulad ng, "Ah, oo, tao." At siya ay tulad ng, "Wala siyang pakialam kung mayroon akong kuto." At parang, "Whoa, ano?"</p><p> [ <em>tawa</em> ]</p><p> Kaya sa tingin ko kailangan mong maging handa na ilagay ang iyong buhay — hindi lamang ang iyong pera, ngunit ang iyong buhay kung nasaan ang iyong bibig. Nagkaroon ako ng kaunting pakikitungo sa Diyos. I was like, “Gagawin ko ito kung wala akong kuto, okay?”</p><p> [ <em>tawa</em> ]</p><p> <b>AUDIENCE MEMBER 2:</b> Ito ay dalawang tanong. Maaari mong sagutin ang alinman, pareho. Ano ang pinakamahirap sa mga hindi Latino na madla? Kapag ipinakita ang iyong trabaho sa North, ano ang dapat mong gawin nang naiiba kumpara sa Los Angeles, San Antonio, o kahit sa Chicago?</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Hindi bagay. Ito ay talagang kahanga-hanga. Wala naman — sure, sa San Antonio mas nagsasalita kami ng Spanish. Ngunit maliban doon, hindi. Ito ay mga mambabasa. Ang mga tao ay mambabasa; gusto nilang malaman ang mga bagay, o hindi sila magbabasa. Kaya hindi, pakiramdam ko - mayroon kaming pariralang ito sa Espanyol, "en familia." Ikaw ay "sa iyong pamilya" kahit saan ako pumunta, dahil ang mga tao ay mababait.</p><p> [ <em>palakpakan</em> ]</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Kaya't kung ang "tayo" ay hindi isang melting pot, ano ang ating pinag-evolve? Ano ang iyong pag-asa, ang iyong pangarap, na tayo ay umuunlad?</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Ay, sus — <em>Star Trek</em> .</p><p> [ <em>palakpakan</em> ]</p><p> Magkakaroon tayo ng kultura, marahil, kung saan mayroong isang uri ng pederasyon ng mga planeta. Ano ang masama sa makakita ng estranghero sa dilim at magtataas lang ng kamay sa iyo ang estranghero na iyon para kumaway at hindi saktan? Anong masama dun? At tila napakasimple para sa akin, at kasiya-siya, na pahalagahan ang kultura o musika o lutuin ng ibang tao, o kahit na makinig sa kanilang relihiyon at sabihing, “Napaka-interesante iyan.”</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Gusto ko yan. So we evolve into just enjoying each other more.</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Well, hindi ba maganda iyon? I think it sure would — except siguro sa sports, right?</p><p> [ <em>tawa</em> ]</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Maaari pa rin nating kamuhian ang isa't isa sa sports.</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Oo, oh, talagang.</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Ito ay isang magandang libro ng tula.</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Salamat.</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> <em>Ang Tijuana Book of the Dead</em> . At sa totoo lang, ang unang tula dito ay tinatawag na "You Who Seek Grace from a Distracted God." At masyadong mahaba para basahin. Pero masyado akong naiintriga kung saan ito nagtatapos. At nagtaka pa nga ako, siguro, kung gagawin mo lang ang page na ito. Pero gusto kong malaman ang lahat ng ito mahal kita. Babasahin mo lang ba iyon at pagkatapos ay kakausapin mo ako kung saan napupunta iyon? Anong nangyayari dyan?</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Buweno, ang unang linya ng unang tula ay, "Ikaw na naghahanap ng biyaya mula sa isang ginulo na Diyos," at ang huling linya ng huling tula ay, "Hindi ka nalilimutan." Kaya naman, sa isip ko, ito ang pinakamahabang pangungusap sa mundo. At lahat ito ay tungkol sa Diyos — o tungkol sa ating pananabik. At kaya ito ay isang tula na inspirasyon ng anti-imigrante na retorika, at ito ay isang paglalakbay sa mga unang oras ng umaga ng mga taong desperadong nagsisikap na makapasok sa trabaho. At ito ay isang echo ng sarili kong umaga, na sumasakay sa maraming bus patungo sa maraming kakila-kilabot na trabaho. At kaya nakatayo ka sa downtown plaza.</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Maaari kang magsimula nang mas maaga, o kung saan mo gusto.</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Hahanap ako ng puwesto, kaya may katuturan. At nakatayo ka kasama ng lahat ng tao doon.</p><p> “Sa pagod ay tahimik kang naglalakad, binibilang ang iyong sari-saring mga kasalanan, / sa plaza, tumayo / sa crush ng iyong pamilya—ang mga batang ito na patungo sa trade school, / ang lalaking may wheelchair, ang babae at ang kanyang shopping cart, / ang tumatango-tango na kabit na may asul na luha sa kanyang pisngi, paisanos / y borrachos, Ticos, Boricuas, Xicanos, Apaches, Haban, Tattoo cholo Samurai'd at hindi maisip na nakasandal, / tumahimik habang pinagmamasdan ka / at gusto mo, ikaw / talagang gusto mo, ikaw ay nag-aapoy dito, ikaw / na walang mga salita / nais mong haplusin ang kanilang mga pisngi sa iyong mga kamay, / gusto mong hawakan ang kanilang mga mukha sa pagitan ng iyong mga palad, / gusto mong sabihin ito - ikaw ay wala. Mahal kita. / I love you.</p><p> [ <em>palakpakan</em> ]</p><p> Bahagyang, mahirap talagang magsabi ng “Mahal kita” ng marami, sa mga tao, sa tingin ko — tiyak, sa isang madla. Interestingly — nakakatuwa na pipiliin mo yun, kasi dun nila sinimulan yung ballet. Ginawa nila akong sabihin ito sa lahat ng mga estranghero na ito. At madalas, kung talagang madrama ang pakiramdam ko, kikilos ako sa bawat bahagi ng madla kapag ginawa ko ito, dahil gusto ko itong maging uri ng isang paganong bendisyon, sa isang paraan.</p><p> [ <em>tawa</em> ]</p><p> Pero oo, gusto mong sabihin. Nais nating lahat na sabihin ito. Pero hindi natin kaya. At nakikitungo ako sa napakaraming bata na hindi makapagkuwento, at hindi nila iniisip na may nagmamahal sa kanila. Akala nila walang pakialam. Iniisip nila na lahat ay napopoot sa kanila. Sila ay naghihintay na itapon sa labas ng bansa o ang kanilang mga ina na mawala. Kaya bahagi nito ay ang pakikipag-usap sa mga taong kailangan pang sabihin ito. Bahagi nito ang pakikipag-usap sa sarili ko, para sabihing, "Huwag kang duwag. Sabihin sa mga tao na mahal mo sila." At bahagi nito ay, madalas akong nakikipag-usap sa 600 mga bata, hindi kayong mga matatanda, at sinasabi ko sa kanila, "Mahal kita. Mahal ko kayong lahat," dahil kailangan ng isang tao. Kailangan mong — kung maaari akong magkaroon ng isang palabas sa radyo, babasahin ko na lang sila ng isang kuwento gabi-gabi at sasabihin sa kanila na mahal ko sila.</p><p> [ <em>palakpakan</em> ]</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Napakaganda nito. At gusto kong tanungin ka, sa pagtatapos natin, kung babasahin mo ang mga linyang ito mula sa <em>Nobody's Son</em> , na isang uri ng talaarawan; mga tala.</p><p> <b>MR. URREA:</b> Oo, okay. "Mga salita lang ang tanging tinapay na maaari nating pagsaluhan. Kapag sinabi kong 'tayo,' ang ibig kong sabihin ay bawat isa sa atin, lahat, kayong lahat, bawat ahente ng Border Patrol at bawat nanginginig na Mexican na sumisilip sa bakod. Bawat Klansman at bawat manggagawa sa opisina ng NAACP. Bawat nalilitong ina at bawat bigong ama. Para ako ay anak ng walang sinuman. Kaya't ako ay umuwi sa aking kapatid.</p><p> [ <em>palakpakan</em> ]</p><p> [ <em>musika: "There Go the Leaves One by One" ni Lullatone</em> ]</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Si Luis Alberto Urrea ay isang propesor sa Ingles sa Unibersidad ng Illinois sa Chicago. Kabilang sa kanyang maraming aklat ang: <em>Into the Beautiful North</em> , <em>The Devil's Highway</em> , <em>The Hummingbird's Daughter</em> , at <em>The House of Broken Angels</em> .</p><p> <b>STAFF:</b> <em>On Being</em> is Chris Heagle, Lily Percy, Mariah Helgeson, Maia Tarrell, Marie Sambilay, Erinn Farrell, Laurén Dørdal, Tony Liu, Bethany Iverson, Erin Colasacco, Kristin Lin, Profit Idowu, Casper ter Kuile, Angie Thurston, Sue Damez, Jeffrey Vonzil, Jeffrey Voz Phillips, Jeffrey G</p><p> <b>MS. TIPPETT:</b> Isang malaking pasasalamat ngayong linggo sa ArtReach St. Croix, sa Stillwater Public Library, Trinity Lutheran Church sa Stillwater, at sa Big Read program ng NEA. Isang espesyal na sigaw kay Heather Rutledge, Stephani Atkins, Traci Post, Travis Nordahl, at Phil Kadidlo.</p><p> [ <em>musika: "Quiet Mind" ni GoGo Penguin</em> ]</p><p> Ang aming magagandang theme music ay ibinigay at binubuo ni Zoë Keating. At ang huling boses na maririnig mong kumakanta ng aming mga huling kredito sa bawat palabas ay ang hip-hop artist na si Lizzo.</p><p> <em>Ang On Being</em> ay nilikha sa American Public Media. Kasama sa aming mga kasosyo sa pagpopondo ang:</p><p> Ang George Family Foundation, bilang suporta sa Civil Conversations Project.</p><p> Ang Fetzer Institute, na tumutulong sa pagbuo ng espirituwal na pundasyon para sa isang mapagmahal na mundo. Hanapin ang mga ito sa fetzer.org.</p><p> Kalliopeia Foundation, nagtatrabaho upang lumikha ng isang hinaharap kung saan ang mga pangkalahatang espirituwal na halaga ay bumubuo sa pundasyon ng kung paano namin pinangangalagaan ang aming karaniwang tahanan.</p><p> Humanity United, nagsusulong ng dignidad ng tao sa tahanan at sa buong mundo. 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