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Ifuatayo Ni Sauti Na Nakala Ya Mahojiano Ya onbeing.org Kati Ya Krista Tippett Na Dk. Bj Miller:
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class="dark-link perm_post"> basi nimekufa.</p><p> Na hilo linanirudisha kwenye maisha haya ya hisi na upesi wa hisi. Na jambo moja ninalojua ni kwamba mwili unakufa. Mwili huu hufa, na mwili huu ni gunia kubwa la sensorer. Kwa hivyo hicho ndicho kitanzi kikubwa kwako hapo hapo.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Tumezungumza juu ya hili katika njia yote ya mazungumzo, kuhusu suala la ulemavu. Na ninataka tu kusoma kitu ulichoandika, kwa sababu ninahisi kama hii ni ya kawaida sana, pia - jinsi tunavyofikiria kuhusu ulemavu, kile tunachokiita. Na katika maisha yako, katika maisha yetu, hii imekuwa kioevu sana. Uliandika, "Nyuma mwaka wa 1990, nilichukuliwa kama mtu wa Frankenstein au sura ya Kristo, na ilikuwa ni ujinga kwa hali yoyote iliyokithiri. Wakati mwingine nilipongezwa kwa kwenda chooni. Kisha mahali fulani njiani, waliokatwa viungo walionekana kupasuka na wachache walitoka na kufanya mambo ya ajabu, wakishindana katika triathlons ya Ironman, na matarajio ya Mount yalibadilika.</p><p> DR. MILLER: Ndio, bado ninamiliki maneno hayo sana.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Na tena, ninafikiria juu ya urembo. Wakati mwingine, watu wanapoandika kukuhusu, hutumia lugha ya - wanakuelezea kama "mtu aliyekatwa viungo mara tatu," ambayo ni kweli kitaalamu, lakini kwangu, ni hivyo - haikuelezi wewe. Ni lugha ya antiseptic sana. Kwa hivyo nina hamu ya kujua jinsi unavyofikiria hata lugha ya walemavu, lakini pia jinsi tunavyofanya kazi na hiyo na kuhangaika nayo.</p><p> DR. MILLER: Hapa ndipo - kwa kweli, ulemavu na ugonjwa sugu ulikuwa njia yangu katika hospitali ya wagonjwa na huduma ya matibabu, zaidi ya kifo, kwa njia. Lakini ulemavu, unatuelekeza - mada kubwa kwangu kama mwanafunzi wa shahada ya kwanza na thesis yangu ya juu, subcurrent ilikuwa kuchanganyikiwa kwangu na lugha. Maneno hayo yanaweza kuashiria mambo. Najua maneno yana maisha yao wenyewe, lakini bado ninapambana na maneno yenye nguvu kiasi gani.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Ni kama maneno gani ambayo unapambana nayo?</p><p> DR. MILLER: Kweli, yote - sawa, wacha tuanze na uliuliza juu ya ulemavu. Namaanisha, niko sawa nayo, lakini ambayo haikujadiliwa ni, ikilinganishwa na nini? Mfumo wa kumbukumbu ni nini? "dis-" ni nini? Hiyo ina maana. Tunaweza kurudi nyuma na kuijadili, na ninapenda wakati watu wanafanya, lakini vinginevyo unakubali tu usoni, "ulemavu," kwamba wewe ni mdogo, kwamba ni kitu cha pathological kinachotokea. Lakini ikilinganishwa na nini? Kwa hivyo uwiano huu wa lugha na wazo la maneno kama viashiria, kama nakala zisizo kamili za ukweli wanaojaribu kuashiria, nataka tu hiyo itambuliwe kila ninapokuwa kwenye mazungumzo mazito, kwamba maneno ndiyo bora tuliyo nayo, lakini yana kasoro nyingi. Ninahitaji tu hilo kutambuliwa mahali fulani.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Ninamaanisha, ni aina ya kurudi kwa wazo hilo kwamba sote tunabeba kila aina zetu za mateso na mapambano ni, na baadhi yao huonyeshwa kwa nje. Na wale tunaowaita "ulemavu" ...</p><p> DR. MILLER: Sawa. Tena, “mponyaji aliyejeruhiwa,” “mlemavu.” Ikiwa kila mtu alijiona kuwa mlemavu, niko tayari. Kitu kimoja. Nakumbuka wakati ningeenda - sijafanya hivi ni miaka mingi, lakini ningeenda - watu wangenikaribisha nizungumze na darasa lao, shule, mara nyingi shule za upili, au wakati watoto wangenikaribia kwenye bustani au kitu na kusema, mara kwa mara, kwa njia iyo hiyo, "Haya, hukosi kuwa na mikono miwili?" Toleo fulani la swali hilo lingetokea, au "miguu miwili?" au chochote. Na ningesema, “Vema, hakika. Ndiyo, ninakosa. Kwa kweli ninakosa kuwa na mikono miwili.” Ewe kijana, ninakosa kuwa na mikono miwili. I mean nini kutibu. Unaweza kuweka miguu, lakini ningependa - I mean, mikono ni ya ajabu.</p><p> Lakini ningewaambia watoto hawa, “Ndiyo, je, hukosi kuwa na watatu?” Wao ni kama, nini? Wananitazama tu kwa namna fulani ya kuchekesha. Na sijui ni wangapi kati yao waliwahi - sijui ikiwa ujibu huo uliwahi kumsaidia mtoto yeyote, lakini jambo lilikuwa, huu ndio ukweli wangu. Kuwa na mkono mmoja ni ukweli wangu kamili na kamili. Sio ukweli wa nusu, na sioni watu wengi wa mikono miwili wakiharibu ukweli kwamba hawana mikono mitatu. Na, bado, kimsingi ni uhusiano sawa na kitu ambacho huwezi kudhibiti.</p><p> [ <em>Muziki: “Jiji la Taa” na Languis</em> ]</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Mimi ni Krista Tippett na hii ni <em>On Being</em> . Leo, na BJ Miller wa Mradi wa Hospitali ya Zen wa San Francisco.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Umezungumza kuhusu upendo na furaha na matumaini makubwa kama uzoefu wa kufa unapofanyika vizuri. Na ninashangaa ungefanyaje - tumaini kuu linamaanisha nini mwishoni mwa maisha, kwani umepata tumaini mwishoni mwa maisha?</p><p> DR. MILLER: Matumaini ni jambo la kuchekesha sana. Ni kitu cha squirrely. Tunaweza kufanya uharibifu kwa matumaini, pia. Ni jambo lenye nguvu. Data nyingi kuhusu kwa nini madaktari wengine hawashiriki ukweli kamili wa ubashiri na wagonjwa wao - na, mara kwa mara, utasikia toleo fulani la, "Vema, kwa sababu sitaki kuondoa tumaini lao." Na wanajua kwamba tumaini ndilo linalowatoa kitandani asubuhi, na kuwataka wajaribu tiba inayofuata, ama chochote kile. Matumaini ni kitu chenye nguvu sana. Lakini katika mafunzo yangu ya utunzaji wa dawa tulivu, nilijifunza, kila ninaposikia neno hilo, kila ninaposikia kifungu cha maneno “Natumaini,” nimefunzwa sasa kuuliza, kuuliza, “Tumaini la nini?” Na hilo, pia, ni jambo la kawaida ambalo linahitaji kuangaliwa, na ni laini zaidi na linaweza kubadilika kuliko sisi katika huduma ya afya mara nyingi tunalolipa sifa, au sisi wanadamu tunalipongeza. Inaonekana kama monolith. Labda una tumaini, au huna.</p><p> Ukweli ni kwamba, tunaweza kubadilisha kile tunachotumainia. Na unatazama katika huduma ya matibabu, kwa mfano, na hospitali, aina hiyo ya dawa inafanywa vizuri wakati mazungumzo haya ya ujuzi, yenye ujuzi yanacheza. Utasikia watoa huduma wakifanya kazi na matumaini ya mtu huyo lakini waelekeze upya. Kwa hivyo ninapomuuliza mtu ambaye anakabiliwa na mwisho wa maisha yake, ikiwa ninajaribu kumsaidia kuelewa kwamba wakati ni mfupi, nitazungumza juu ya kile wanachotarajia katika maisha yao. Na ikiwa ninawasikia wakisema, "Vema, natumaini kuishi miaka mingine 30," lakini najua wana wiki tatu, kuna bendera kubwa nyekundu ya mimi kusema, "Unajua nini, jamani? Je, ikiwa hilo halifanyiki? Basi unaweza kutumaini nini? Ikiwa wakati ni mfupi kuliko huo, ni nini kiini cha tumaini lako?" Na mara kwa mara - sawa, sio kila wakati, lakini mara nyingi unaweza kuwafikisha watu mahali ambapo wanasema, "Sawa, gosh, kwa kuzingatia ukweli huo, ninachotarajia ni kufika kwenye mahafali ya binti yangu." Na kisha nasema, "Sawa, sawa, kuna lengo ambalo tunaweza kufanya kazi nalo." Na mtu akiniambia, “Vema, ninatumaini kuishi milele,” basi ninaita huo muujiza, na kusema “Vema, tutegemee miujiza pamoja.” Ni tu - kuna mengi ya kusema juu ya neno hili, "tumaini." Ni kitu ambacho kuna mengi ya kufanya kazi nayo hapo.</p><p> Lakini nyuma kujibu swali lako, wakati ni mfupi, wakati watu wanakabiliwa na mwisho wa maisha, si lazima jitihada zisizo na matumaini. Wanaweza kutumaini kuwa na kipande kimoja zaidi cha pizza, au wanaweza kutumaini kuona kipindi cha mwisho cha kipindi wanachopenda. Lakini inaweza kuwa ya kweli, na inaweza kuvuta watu pamoja ili waweze kucheza wenyewe hadi nje. Na hiyo ndiyo "kuishi hadi pumzi yako ya mwisho".</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Inapendeza kwangu. Unafanya kazi na kifo kama jambo hili la kawaida, ukweli huu wa vitendo, kitu ambacho sisi sote - sote tunakufa, sivyo? Hiyo ni sababu nyingine kwamba daktari ni mgonjwa, pia, sivyo? Sisi sote tunakufa.</p><p> DR. MILLER: Ndio, haswa. Ndiyo.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Lakini unaonekana kuishikilia pamoja na aina hii ya heshima ya kudumu, au kuheshimu fumbo la kifo chenyewe. Je, unahisi kama unaelewa au unafikiri kwa njia tofauti kifo kama sehemu ya maisha yako, tofauti kwa sababu ya maisha haya ambayo umekuwa ukiongoza? Je, ni chini ya fumbo?</p><p> DR. MILLER: Ni swali kubwa. Kuna historia katika uwanja wangu ya vifo vigumu vya kushangaza vya watu waliofanya kazi katika hospitali. Nadhani mawaidha kwetu - "sisi" ikimaanisha sisi tunaofanya kazi katika uwanja huu, tuwe wa kujitolea au daktari au muuguzi au chochote - ni kwamba usijidanganye kwa kufikiria kuwa unajua kifo, kwamba unaelewa, oh, nimeipata sasa. Nimepitia - Nimezunguka eneo hili mara milioni na watu. Nimeipata. Kwa hivyo wakati wangu ukifika, nitakuwa sawa. Hiyo ni hatari kweli. Hiyo ni kama jinxing mwenyewe. Baadhi ya haya yanafahamika, na, kwa mfano, kudhihaki kufa na mateso yanayodokezwa. Kufa ni tofauti na kifo, na dhihaka - wengi wetu tunaogopa kufa kwa sababu inamaanisha mateso. Na unapoifikia, ndivyo watu wengi wana wasiwasi juu yake.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Kufa kuliko kufa kwa kiumbe.</p><p> DR. MILLER: Ndio. Kwa hivyo kuna mengi ambayo nimejifunza ambayo yatanisaidia kuteseka kidogo, ambayo yanaweza kunisaidia kusaidia wengine kuteseka kidogo katika mchakato huo wa kufa. Lakini sijifanyii kujua au kuelewa kifo kwa kila mmoja. Na sehemu ya kile ninachofanya, heshima unayoelekeza ni, tena, kurudi kwenye fumbo hili, jambo hili ambalo sielewi ambalo ni kubwa zaidi kuliko mimi mwenyewe, na kwamba - nini kinatokea baada ya kufa kwangu? sijui. Na, kijana, si kwamba kuvutia? Kwa hivyo sehemu ya kazi yangu, na, nadhani, tunapozungumza na wanafunzi, ni, ndio, jitambulishe na dhana ya kifo, na hakika na dhana ya kufa, lakini usijidanganye kwa kufikiria kuwa unaijua kabisa. Kwa sababu, la sivyo, siku moja utajipata umesimama kwenye upeo wa macho yako, na utashtuka sana kujua kwamba unaogopa sana wakati ulidhani tu kwamba haungekuwa. Kwa hivyo ni rahisi, tengeneza nafasi kidogo.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Hiyo ndiyo siri yake. Ndiyo.</p><p> DR. MILLER: Hilo ndilo fumbo pia. Sawa. Lazima tu ulinde nafasi kidogo kwa yote ambayo hujui.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Kwa hivyo unajua, swali langu la mwisho, umekuwa na maisha ya ajabu. Mengi yamekutokea. Umechukua mengi, na una ajali hii kubwa mapema katika maisha yako, aina ya upya wa maisha yako, na kazi umekuwa na, sasa, kufanya kazi na watu. Na kwa njia fulani, unaweza kuzungumza juu - unachofanya ni kusaidia watu kubuni, kutunga kufa kwao, mwisho wa maisha yao. Hili ni swali kubwa, lakini ungeanzaje kufikiria juu ya kile ambacho haya yote yanakufundisha juu ya maana ya kuwa mwanadamu? Na nadhani njia nyingine ya kuuliza hivyo ni jinsi unavyobeba haya yote kwa jinsi unavyotumia siku zako, maisha yako.</p><p> DR. MILLER: Ndio. Ni swali moto, na ni moja-sasa. Inavutia. Nina umri wa miaka 44, na ninaangalia nyuma na, kwa hatua nyingi, nimekuwa na maisha ya ajabu sana. Na wakati huo huo, moja ya ujuzi wa kubadilika niliochukua kwa miaka mingi ni kweli - wakati ghafla unakuwa mtu aliyekatwa viungo mara tatu au kitu kama hicho, unatumiwa ishara nyingi kwamba wewe ni tofauti, sasa, na watu walio karibu nawe. Na ukiishia hapo unaweza kujiumiza sana. Na wewe kupata kutibiwa maalum, na kwamba ina upotofu yake mwenyewe, pia, na huruma. Na unaweza kupata vitu kutoka kwa huruma, na kwa kweli ni moja ya makaburi makubwa katika kuvuka haya yote kwa ajili yangu. Ikiwa ningekubali wazo hili kwamba, "Ah ndio, mimi ni tofauti na wale walio karibu nami," na kuliacha tu, ningeingiza tu kabari kati yangu na kila mtu karibu nami ambayo mwishowe hangenihudumia.</p><p> Sisi ni viumbe vya kijamii, na moja ya mambo muhimu ambayo nimewahi kufanya ilikuwa kugusa wazo hili la kuona tofauti kwenye mada. Kwa hiyo, hakika, mwili wangu ni tofauti kwa njia nyingi. Kwa njia nyingi, maisha yangu ni tofauti. Lakini mwishowe, ninaziona kama tofauti kwenye mada, na hiyo huniruhusu kukiri kile ambacho ni cha kipekee katika maisha yangu, lakini pia kujiona kama mtu mwingine yeyote kwa njia ya ukweli na halisi, sio tu iliyoundwa. Kwa hivyo hiyo ni sehemu ya jibu langu kwa swali lako. Lakini wazo hili - ninapambana na hili. Mimi ni mtu mwenye shughuli nyingi, kama wengi wetu. Shughuli ya kijinga. Hapa ninayo - kutokana na uzoefu wangu mwenyewe, lakini nina kile ninachokiita uzoefu huu wote wa kifo wakati wote. Niko karibu na watu wanaokufa. Na mimi, kati ya watu wote, najua kwamba wakati ni wa thamani. Usiipoteze kwa kufanya mambo usiyojali. Usiipe kwa bei nafuu sana, blah, blah, blah. Tumia wakati mdogo kazini, wakati mwingi na familia, chochote kile, unajua. [ <em>anacheka</em> ] Sina kisingizio cha kusahau hilo. Zip. Na, hata hivyo, ninajikuta nina shughuli nyingi sana na ninazidi kuwa na shughuli nyingi, wakati mwingine nje ya viungo nikifanya mambo ambayo sitaki kabisa kufanya au hata kuamini, kwa kiwango fulani. Na kuna dhiki ya kweli ya maadili katika hilo.</p><p> Nadhani hiyo ni sehemu ya jinsi tunavyochoma, ni kwamba unayo masomo haya, lakini tunajikuta bado hatuwezi kufanikisha baadhi ya masomo haya. Kwa hivyo ni swali moto kwangu sasa hivi, Krista. Lazima nitambue - lazima nijipange upya mara kwa mara na kutafakari jinsi ninavyotumia wakati wangu. Ninajua kuwa nina urafiki mwingi sana ambao umepotea. Ninajua kwamba mimi hutumia wakati mdogo sana na wazazi wangu, na kuna mifano mingine. Kwa hivyo sina budi kujilinganisha tena.</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Lakini unajua, unachokielezea tu, namaanisha, una fahamu kuhusu, ulisema nini, kwamba tunajua tunachotaka na, kwa kweli, tunapaswa kufanya nini, na nini kitakuwa kizuri kwetu, na tunatatizika kuoanisha ukweli na hilo. Namaanisha, hiyo ndiyo hali ya kibinadamu. Hiyo ndiyo nub yake. Unafanya kazi na hilo.</p><p> DR. MILLER: Ninafanya kazi na hilo. Lakini pia unaashiria - ninapokatishwa tamaa na jinsi ninavyotumia wakati wangu, wakati mwingine, au kutotumia wakati wangu, sio kuutendea kwa thamani ninayojua inastahili ...</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: Sio kuunda wakati wako.</p><p> DR. MILLER: Ndio. Hiyo ni kweli. Na, hatimaye, ninatua nyuma, na hapa ndipo ilipo. Na hii ni harakati ya ubunifu, ambayo inachukua - matanga ambayo yanahitaji kupunguzwa kila wakati. Na kuona hii kama kazi ya ubunifu ambayo haijawahi kufanywa ni nzuri, ni nzuri, na ningependa kutua hapo. Pengine ni mahali pazuri pa kusimama. Na kwa hivyo yote tuliyoelezea hivi punde, hata kama siwezi kuheshimu kila dakika ya kila siku kwa njia hii ya thamani zaidi, vyema, hatimaye, ni jambo lingine tu ninalopata kusamehe ndani yangu na kuendelea kujaribu kesho.</p><p> [ <em>Muziki: “Wachunguzi Waliovunjwa” na Bernhard Fleischmann</em> ]</p><p> MS. TIPPETT: BJ Miller ni mkurugenzi mtendaji wa Mradi wa Hospitali ya Zen, profesa msaidizi wa kliniki wa dawa katika Chuo Kikuu cha California - San Francisco, na yeye ni mtaalamu anayehudhuria kwa Huduma ya Kudhibiti Dalili ya Kituo cha Saratani Kina cha UCSF Helen Diller.</p><p> Katika onbeing.org, unaweza kujiandikisha kwa barua pepe ya kila wiki kutoka kwetu, <em>Barua kutoka Loring Park</em> . Katika kikasha chako kila Jumamosi asubuhi - orodha iliyoratibiwa ya bora zaidi kati ya yale tunayosoma na kuchapisha, ikiwa ni pamoja na maandishi ya wachangiaji wetu walioalikwa. Wiki hii, tafuta insha ya Martha Park kuhusu kubeba bunduki na kuwapenda majirani zetu. Tafuta insha yake na mengi zaidi kwenye onbeing.org.</p><p> [ <em>Muziki: “L'Espionnage Pomme de Terre” na Turatara</em> ]</p><p> <em>On Being</em> ni Trent Gilliss, Chris Heagle, Lily Percy, Mariah Helgeson, Maia Tarrell, Annie Parsons, Marie Sambilay, Tess Montgomery, Aseel Zahran, Bethanie Kloecker, na Selena Carlson.</p><p> Washirika wetu wakuu wa ufadhili ni:</p><p> Wakfu wa Ford, wakifanya kazi na wenye maono juu ya mstari wa mbele wa mabadiliko ya kijamii duniani kote kwenye fordfoundation.org.</p><p> Taasisi ya Fetzer, inakuza ufahamu wa nguvu ya upendo na msamaha ili kubadilisha ulimwengu wetu. 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}</script> <h3 class="h5 pb-2 section-header mt-5"> <i class="bi bi-people text-success"></i> <span>1 PAST RESPONSES</span> <hr> </h3> <div id="cmtlist" class="mt-4"> <div class="comment-item" id="cmt_9465"> <div class="comment-container"> <div class="comment-avatar"> <img src="https://pod.servicespace.org/pics/mem/blank.jpg" alt="User avatar"> </div> <div class="comment-content-wrapper"> <div class="comment-meta"> <span class="comment-author">Kristin Pedemonti</span> <span class="comment-date">Aug 5, 2021</span> <a href="https://www.dailygood.org/story/1257/-p-ifuatayo-ni-sauti-na-nakala-ya-mahojiano-ya-onbeing-org-kati-ya-krista-tippett-na-dk-bj-miller-p-p-p-iframe-frameborder-no-height-166-scrolling-no-src-https-w-soundcloud-com-player-url-https-3a-api-soundcloud-com-tracks-244241049-and-amp-on-being/?t=showComment&cid=9465" class="ms-auto link-icon text-muted"><i class='fa fa-link'></i></a> </div> <div class="comment-content"> <p>Thank you BJ Miller for your insights, humanity, humor and candor. Your views on "hope" brought up something we discussed with Vikki Reynolds this week she called "believed in hope" that is a form of hope in action and is as,you said, relative to context. She shared an example of hope even in the seemingly darkest places like death row. Where the hope may not end up being freedom, but to die with a tiny shred of dignity of one's humanity being seen and shared, even if with only one other person. Was powerful to consider and your views on hope, it being fluid depending on circumstances transported me.</p><p>Thank you.</p> </div> <div class="comment-actions"> <a href="https://www.dailygood.org/story/1257/-p-ifuatayo-ni-sauti-na-nakala-ya-mahojiano-ya-onbeing-org-kati-ya-krista-tippett-na-dk-bj-miller-p-p-p-iframe-frameborder-no-height-166-scrolling-no-src-https-w-soundcloud-com-player-url-https-3a-api-soundcloud-com-tracks-244241049-and-amp-on-being/?t=showComment&cid=9465#addcomment" class="reply-link" data-cmt-id="9465" data-cmt-author="Kristin Pedemonti"><i class="bi bi-reply"></i> Reply</a> <span class="btn-light post_btn small"></span> </div> </div> </div> </div> </div> <script> $(document).ready(function() { // Toggle between short and full comments $('.see_full_cmt').on('click', function(e) { e.preventDefault(); var cid = $(this).attr('cid'); $('.short_cmt' + cid).hide(); $('.long_cmt' + cid).show(); }); $('.see_short_cmt').on('click', function(e) { e.preventDefault(); var cid = $(this).attr('cid'); $('.long_cmt' + cid).hide(); $('.short_cmt' + cid).show(); }); }); </script> </div>   </div> </div> </div> </div> </section> <script src="js/story.js?2cue"></script>  <footer class="footer"> <div class="container"> <div class="row"> <div class="col-md-5 mb-4 mb-md-0"> <h5 class="footer-title">About DailyGood</h5> <p class="footer-about-text"> For over 29 years, DailyGood has been a volunteer-led movement to share uplifting stories that connect hearts and inspire action — all without ads, agendas, or asks. 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